Monday, 29 February 2016

Clinical & Chinese Food

So, I started my second Clinical today and let me just say: holy crap. I am going to be so incredibly busy for the next 6 weeks that I'm dreading it. It doesn't help that I was placed in a tiny town half an hour outside of my city and I am a terribly nervous highway driver.

Another thing my clinical is complicating is how well I'll be able to stick to my healthy food habits. I'm never organized enough to plan my lunch the night before and have it all prepped and ready to go. And since my commute is a half an hour away, I refuse to get up any earlier than I absolutely have to (and that usually includes skipping out on a packed lunch). For reference, it takes me usually 5 minutes to wake up; 15 minutes to do hair and makeup (Clinical style AKA barely presentable); 5 minutes to get dressed; and I give myself 5 minutes to grab my backpack and fill my water bottle. All in all, a half hour. Plus my commute time and a 5 minute variable cushion, I set my alarm for 5:55 to be at Clinical by 7.

Sleep is precious to me.

Other than today though, I've been doing fairly good. I'm on Day 8 and I had my first cheat meal. My Clinical instructor ended up running out and grabbing us donuts and then my friend (who grew up in the town) wanted to go for Chinese food. If there's one thing I can't say no to, it's Chinese food (or potatoes for that matter).

There was a time when my boyfriend would pack my lunch for me... ah, the good ol' days. Although I think my motivation is getting to him. He's slowly been restricting his portions and we've stopped going out for supper nearly as much.

Hopefully the packed lunches are soon to follow. ;D

~ Courtney

Wednesday, 24 February 2016

Day 2 on Rabbit Food

Yesterday started as a good day. I got up super early (8am... which is early for me unless I have class) mostly because I couldn't sleep after my boyfriend left for work, but also because I decided that I wanted to go for a walk (I talked about this is my post yesterday). While I felt super accomplished after getting back home, I was freezing cold. It is still technically winter where I live and I do not enjoy the cold or the wind (which is what my city is famous for...figures). Anyway, while on Pinterest (yes, I know...) I stumbled upon a post talking about the Rabbit Food Pyramid. If you've never heard of it, you can find it here. I've always been a little skeptical about food pyramids as they're not usually very thorough and I've heard lots of research that doesn't support the use of food pyramids/guides.

When I was little, we had a copy of this exact Canada Food Guide on our fridge. I grew up on a limited income so it was very rare for me to ever get all four food groups at any given meal (I was also a little brat who hated any kind of vegetable except for carrots which the rest of my family was always sick of).

So anyway, I've seen the Rabbit Food Pyramid on Pinterest before but I never actually looked at it because of these reasons. For some reason though, yesterday I decided to click on the blog and read about it. And I was actually pretty mad at myself after. It seems so simple and easy and I'm kind of mad that I never took the time to look at it before. And for once, it all seems like food that I will actually eat! After reading about it and making my own printouts to put in my binder of the portion sizes and different kinds of food that it talks about, I went straight to the grocery store to get started. I bought all my food and then another good thing happened. I ended up having over 50,000 PC points, so I got $50 off all my groceries! As a broke, 'starving' college student, it just about made me cry.

Yesterday went well. I stuck to all the servings for each meal and all the proper portion sizes and I was actually really impressed that I felt full all day! The only thing I do different is that I split my snack portion into two. So instead of having all that's portioned for my snack at once, I split it between breakfast and lunch, and lunch and supper. I made it to day 2! Which is somewhat of an accomplishment for me, as I'm really bad for getting sidetracked or getting super hungry and then just eating whatever I feel like (I haven't been doing that since I began trying to lose weight, but I feel like this is really going to help me).

Today I felt like I had so much energy too! I woke up early again, by myself (HUGE accomplishment), and actually ate breakfast! I'm not going to lie, I hated the plain Greek yogurt, but I still ate it and have now resolved to find the healthiest NONplain Greek yogurt out there. And then, I brought out my guitar from the back recesses of closet where it's been forced to reside since I convinced myself that I cannot play guitar. Well guess what guitar, I have resolved to learn to play you again! I was surprised with how much I've actually retained about playing since my guitar probably hasn't left my closet in 2 years. And I don't think I'm as bad as I convinced myself I was! I still can't play any songs, but I've resolved to practice my fingerings and dexterity exercises until I can at least play 'Happy Birthday' or something. That'll be another goal of mine. Along with losing weight, I want to be able to play my boyfriend 'Happy Birthday' on his birthday which isn't until November, so I should have lots of time.

~ Courtney

Tuesday, 23 February 2016

Yes, I'm THAT Girl

You know that one friend you have who is constantly on the computer updating Instagram and pinning on Pinterest?

I'll admit it. I'm that girl. Pinterest has been my life lately. I probably have 50+ boards, half of them secret and dedicated to my dream engagement ring, my dream wedding, and my dream children. Recently though, I've decided to focus my Pinterest perusing the fitness and healthy lifestyle pins to try and keep myself motivated. I do have a habit of getting bored or attending one-too-many night out birthday dinners and then falling off the bandwagon, so this is my way of ensuring that doesn't happen again.

I tried started a plank challenge a few days ago but I could barely hold myself up for 5 seconds, let alone the targeted 20. It was really discouraging and the next few days were spent with aching stomach muscles. I've since realized that maybe I was being a little too ambitious. I have always had a weak core and weak upper body so I figured it was unfair to myself to compare my fitness to how long I can hold a plank. I've decided to start small, with exercising at least, seeing as how incredibly busy I am currently with school. Our second Clinical rotation begins next Monday and I'll be doing that for 8 hours a day, three days a week until the middle of April. Between Clinical three days a week, seven classes stuffed into Thursday and Friday, and all my other assignments and studying I'll have to do, I don't see much time for myself to work out and still have a social life. So I've decided to start with walking. I set up a route around my neighbourhood and attempted it today. It ended up being 3/4 of a mile and took my about 11 minutes to complete.

I'm going to try and update this blog at least 1-2 times a week (hopefully more) with any weight/exercise updates or things that I try that end up working for me.

~ Courtney

Friday, 19 February 2016

Tips & Tricks & Jennifer Lawrence

This post is mostly just going to be a list of different motivational ideas that I've tried and that work for me or just ones that I think are great ideas.

I'm a list-maker. Ever since I was little, I've been making lists for everything; to-do, things-I-want, books-to-read, places-to-travel, etc . . . I get immense satisfaction in crossing things off of my lists. Nothing in the world makes me feel more accomplished than knowing I get to X-out something on my list which is probably why, when I decided to get healthy, I made a list (honestly, I have more like five lists on health and fitness, but whatevs).

I have a goal chart that I made and printed out posted on my closet door. I actually took this idea off of a post on pinterest because it appealed to me so much. I just felt like I could totally keep up with it (and I like the idea of rewarding myself). I also made specific goal dates by which I want to achieve them and even a list of rewards for myself when I do hit my goals. This has been the biggest help for me trying to lose weight and get healthy because I feel so great when I get to cross numbers off of my chart. It actually makes it feel like an achievement and not just a chore.

Another idea I saw on pinterest that I was contemplating trying was the pebbles in two separate jars (lbs lost vs lbs to lose), but my room is actually pretty spatially deprived at the moment (especially of any kind of counter space) and I figured it would eventually just be one more thing I'd have to clean. I do really like the idea though, I'm a very visually motivated individual so I can definitely see the appeal of it.

One other idea I saw, more for trying to make a habit of things, but it was to have 21 numbered sticky notes on your wall and to take one down for each day you abstain from whatever-you-chose until it becomes a habit. Again, I really like the idea, but it seems very temporary to me. I like seeing evidence of my accomplishments and this idea is based more off of what you end up not having (. . . if that makes any sense at all??).

Finally . . .  my biggest motivation of all . . .

Pictures of Jennifer Lawrence!

I'm not going to be unrealistic or creepy and say my goal is to have her body, because it's not. She's three or four inches shorter that me and probably almost 100lbs skinnier, but like I said before, I work best with visualizations and I love her body because it's real (also I just really love that gray dress, and her blue bikini-my fave colour!). She's not stick thin, or super ripped, and she has curves. As a super-curvy girl myself, I've grown up loving my curves. Especially my boobs. If I lost weight, I do not want to look so thin as to look sickly or be comparable to a stick.


Previous Date Goal
     Valentine's Day       240lbs   234.5lbs!

Current Weight   234lbs

Next Date Goal
     My B-day (17/05)   215lbs

A little under 3 months to lose 19lbs. I figure I can safely lose 1.5lbs per week for the next 12 weeks, and then I'll be in pretty good shape for my ultimate goal!

Wish me luck!

~ Courtney

Thursday, 18 February 2016

Why I Started...

I had a conversation about a month ago with a friend who laughed at me when I told her I wanted to lose some weight. She told me I was skinny enough and it's not like I need to try to impress anyone (I've maintained my weight for the past three years-since before I started dating my boyfriend).

It got me thinking; why do I want to lost weight? Honestly, I've never had huge self-conscious, body image issues. I'm tall (5'11) and I like to think that I'm decently proportionate so it's never really been about how I look in the mirror. Like yeah, there are some days when I look at pictures or see myself and then think, maybe I would look better if I lost some weight, but it's not like I ever thought I was 'fat'.

May 2009: Grade 9 graduation
(and the specific reason that I got bangs)

 May 2012: High School graduation
(I know this isn't a full body pic, but I loved my dress)

April 2015: College graduation

My main motivation for my lifestyle change isn't losing weight, actually. I just want to be healthy. Honestly, being in nursing has actually paranoid me against everything that is unhealthy or bad for you, or could cause adverse effects. Not that I wasn't paranoid before (I'm literally terrified of everything), but this is a different paranoia. I'm so scared of being at the end of my life and looking back and thinking that if I changed something, would I have had a better life? would I have lived longer? It's terrifying to think about.

So even though I might refer to this as my "weight loss journey" it's actually more of a "healthy lifestyle change journey." (ugh, that sounds so pretentious. ew.)


Starting weight as of 04/02/16: 242lbs
Current weight as of 17/02/16: 234lbs
Goal weight: 180lbs

~ Courtney

Wednesday, 17 February 2016

Gotta Start Somewhere

I am currently a nursing student in the PN program. I'm starting this blog in the hopes of documenting my time as a student nurse and also to maintain a record of my weight loss journey.

First day of semester 1 clinical!

I decided about two weeks ago that I needed to make a change in my life. I wanted to begin my weight loss journey because I really wasn't satisfied with the way I look and the way I eat. I've tried losing weight before but I never really got into it like I have recently. I am currently in my second semester of nursing and it hit me how ironic it is for me to be promoting health and healing when I'm not in a healthy place myself. So I decided to change that!

I've been feeling so motivated lately and I think it's been the different way I'm approaching losing weight this time which is completely opposite from ways I've tried before. I wanted a place to post my motivations, tips, pictures, and progress notes to help keep me motivated and accountable to myself (a problem I've had before).

Since beginning my lifestyle change (eating healthier so far, and drinking tons of water), I have lost over 7lbs in two weeks. And this was through two weeks of midterms!

I'm going to update as much as I can between classes, homework, and studying, with progress notes or any time I just feel like I need to express myself. Here I go!

~ Courtney